Transitions

I taught my teenage daughter
to parallel park yesterday.

She paid attention
and learned how to do it
after a few tries.

I thought I heard church bells
but maybe not.

In a month she gets
her license.

Later she drove me up the Columbia gorge
into a sharp, sun drenched afternoon.

And I became a passenger.
Again.

Staying Alive

The D’Autremont brothers,
in jail for life for robbing a train

and killing four railroad workers
near Ashland in 1923,

spent their old age walking
circuits of the prison yard.

As they passed each other,
a brief look

and a coded message:
knight to QB3.

Winter Braids

Winter braids
the tree branches

into fronded kelp
the wind washes through

True Like Genesis

How fractal are
the oldest stories!

Russian dolls
within more dolls.

Hold their kaleidoscopic facets
up to the light and turn them,

make a paper snowflake
of them

and the whole will
emerge like Shadrach!

Eminem Under Erasure

(This is an erasure of Eminem’s song Lost Forever)

Look, if you had one shot,
or one opportunity

to seize everything,
the surface goes so loud,

the words run out, up, over,
reality goes gravity.

There goes Rabbit,
back to the lab again.

This whole rhapsody
captures this moment.

The moment comes once–
lose yourself in the music.

The soul’s escaping
only grows harder.

Coast to coast
God’s own daughter

changes what you call rage.
The right type of life

to feed and water,
to formulate a plot

to not grow old in Salem’s lot,
this may be the only opportunity.

If You Know the Buddha

“If you know the Buddha the past is practice (it had to happen to bring you to this moment) and the future is freedom. If you don’t know the Buddha the past is mistakes and the future is punishment.”

-from a man in Bhutan

Happy 100th Birthday William Stafford

The poet William Stafford’s 100th birthday would have been yesterday, January 17. His centennial is being celebrated through the year across Oregon and around the world. I attended the kick-off event today. His son Kim spoke for about his father, read some of his work, and generously shared what seemed to motivate his father’s life and his art. For me, it was confirmation of poetry being a discipline, a habit to be cultivated, not inspiration teased out from a mischievous muse. Above all, it was a call to believe in your own work.

Here are my notes about William Stafford’s daily writing practice:

Rise at 4:00 am. This was a practice that began in conscientious objector’s camp during World War Two. The COs did manual labor during the day but decided to have a university before going to work. They all rose at four and those with training taught others about the subjects they knew — philosophy, music, painting, science. After the war he continued the practice with his writing.

Go for a walk or a run. Lie down. “My poems are happy because I am comfortable,” he said.

Write the date at the top of the page. “Then I know I’m going.”

Write anything ordinary, daily events,  random thoughts. 
“When in doubt or blocked, lower your standards and keep going.”

Write an aphorism.  Examples:
“From high cliffs it is courtesy to let others go first.”
“You be the dog, I’ll be Pavlov.”

Then write something that is sort if like a poem. He wrote stuff I would never write, said Kim. Very ordinary. Boring.  “If I don’t welcome all my ideas, soon even the bad ones won’t come,” he said.

Weekly he typed up about one of eight of the pages he wrote and submitted them to different publications. Once he had faith in a poem he sent it off and often they would get rejected over and over, sometimes continuously over a span of twenty years!  “Traveling Through the Dark” (my favorite of all his poems) was rejected nine times. I have seen the original — he kept records on the original of the rejections. I told Kim afterwards how impressed I was with this, since the poem strikes me every time I read it. He said, “yeah you really have to believe in what you’re doing.”

William Stafford wrote 22,000 of these daily pages. That is an average of a page a day for sixty years. From these pages he culled and published sixty books, won the National Book Award, became poet laureate and one of the most loved  American writers of the twentieth century. Here is Traveling Through the Dark.

Traveling Through the  Dark.

Traveling through the dark I found a deer
dead on the edge of the Wilson River road.
It is usually best to roll them into the canyon:
that road is narrow; to swerve might make more dead.

By glow of the tail-light I stumbled back of the car
and stood by the heap, a doe, a recent killing;
she had stiffened already, almost cold.
I dragged her off; she was large in the belly.

My fingers touching her side brought me the reason–
her side was warm; her fawn lay there waiting,
alive, still, never to be born.
Beside that mountain road I hesitated.

The car aimed ahead its lowered parking lights;
under the hood purred the steady engine.
I stood in the glare of the warm exhaust turning red;
around our group I could hear the wilderness listen.

I thought hard for us all–my only swerving–,
then pushed her over the edge into the river.

–William Stafford

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Any sampler at Multnomah whiskey library
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(Two hour lines on weekends!)

Xuixos de cremas at
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Hot chicks at Tiffinasha.com’s
No Po food cart

Gonzo’s Shawarma fries at
Iheartfalafel.com’s
food cart

You can thank me later.

Leaving a Candle in the Window

It gives me comfort
to know many of the people

who deeply needed to read
what Thoreau had to say

we’re not born when he wrote down his thoughts–and he knew it.

So made a handcrafted wooden box
for his journals–of one million words!–
and left them with a friend.

When someone asked him before he passed if he was right with Jesus,
he replied a snowstorm meant more to him than Jesus.

Indeed, his last words were “moose” and “Indian.”

Sex Habits of Martyrs

The sex habits
of martyrs

the two I know of
were both

liberal
and prolific

Driving to church 
doesn’t mean

you have to stay
in the slow lane

Walking the Walk

“If my devils are to leave me, I am afraid my angels will take flight as well.”

–Rainer Maria Rilke commenting on leaving psychotherapy

The Orchardists

Aaron Copeland and Anton Chekov
were orchardists and winter brothers.
How I love the flavors
in their unique hybrids!

Copeland’s winey apples of sound
burst with the smell of the prairies,
the tang of clean labor with horse and wagon
and the cider-drunk hoedowns
in farming towns along the Mississippi.

And Chekov! Grafting the luckless
and misbegotten with the divine ordinary!
I can see him in his study turning
a pear of an idea in his mind over and over,
examining the imperfections.

Ah, there it is, he says!
Masha shall confess to her sisters
that she is in love with commander Vershinin,
the one with the suicidal wife:

“My sisters … I’ve confessed,
now I shall keep silent … like Gogol’s madman.”

And that new strain gets passed down through the ages,
full of the hope and despair and life’s troubled journey
and yet surrounded by love and greatness of heart.
How can one not be filled with their joy?

Journal Entry November 20, 2013

The Army has finished burning the nerve gas stored at the Umatilla army munitions depot in the eastern Oregon desert and is now dismantling the incinerator.

The earth covered concrete storage bunkers still dot the land like burial mounds from a long disappeared race that happens to be ourselves. The fact that we have emptied our own tombs gives me hope.

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Your True Guide

Your true guide drinks from an
undammed stream.

–Rumi

Quarreling With Ourselves

“Out of the quarrel with others we make rhetoric; out of the quarrel with ourselves we make poetry.”

-William Butler Yeats

Korean Sijo Poem by Yi Myunghan

If on the pathways of dreams
a footprint could leave a mark,
The road by your window
though rough with rocks,
would soon wear smooth.
But in dreams paths take no footprints.
I mourn the more for that.

꿈에 다니는 길이 자최 곧 나량이면
님이 집 창 밖에 석로이라도 닳으련마는
꿈길이 자최 없으니 그를 슬허하노라

Yi Myunghan (1595-1645)

Eye Rhyme Poem #2

Death at the Mall

If in slaughter there is laughter
Do we comb every womb,

Find what food sears the blood
To find the bomb before the tomb?

North Atlantic, 1943

My father was twenty six in this picture.
You can only see the side of his close shaved head.

He is sitting with a life vest on above the waves rolling alongside the troop ship,
somewhere in the north atlantic in 1943.

The sea below held all his fears
twisted into dark knots of German submarines.

Lots of boys were drunk; the ship reeked of vomit and the smell of fear.
Yet in the picture too, is hope;

there is and me and my brothers and mom
and saturday morning pancakes and camping trips in the Tetons.

It’s all there just off to the side and out of focus,
waiting, along with what didn’t happen,

just as real, just as possible,
as the sisters I never had or the young Army chaplain
who never made it beyond the beach.

Erasing Wallace Stevens

Erasure poems are made by whittling other poems down, to see if another poem lives inside the original. This is from “Postcards from the Volcano,” by Wallace Stevens:

Children picking our bones,
Quick as foxes on the hill.

The grapes
Made sharp air sharper by their smell…

With our bones
We left much more, left what still is–
The look of things, left what we felt, what we saw.

The spring clouds blow
Beyond our gate and the windy sky…

Still, weaving budded aureoles
Will speak our speech and never know.

A tatter of shadows peaked to white
gold of the opulent sun.

When Teachers Were Lions

Sadly, I passed on taking a writing workshop from Raymond Carver when the American Checkov was still alive. I heard he was a bit of a terror but raw and real, like his short stories.

And I arrived too late at the University of a Washington to learn to write and to appreciate poetry from Theodore Roethke in his legendary poetry classes.

But I did learn something about history and public responsibility from one of Roethke’s contemporaries, Giovanni Costigan.

Costigan was a tiny, elderly titan of learning and disciplined thought. People would leave other classes and sit in the aisles and pack the room to the walls if they heard he was lecturing. I watched him bring 300 people to awe and some to tears when he spoke about what fairies and the animist spirit life meant to William Butler Yeats and to the soul of the Irish people.

Costigan also publicly debated Wliiiam F. Buckley for two and a half hours on the ill-advised US foreign policy in Vietnam. The debate was televised and drew more viewers than that nights Sonics game. It was like watching Muhammad Ali stick and move while Joe Frazier just bullied and bashed.

Where have such mighty teachers gone? Where are our lions?

P.S. I do know one. Elizabeth Warren. She went to the Senate to take on the corruption head on. I hope she runs for President.